My Weekly Goals Changed as soon as the Thermometer read 102 degrees.
My week started off with calling into work to stay home with my sick little man for Monday. He had a high fever early Sunday afternoon, we left our Cabin Weekend early to hopefully get the fever down and a good nights rest. There was a small hopeful thought in the back of my mind: “I get the chance to work on my Blog, set up my Etsy account, run the load of laundry from the Cabin Weekend and even go grocery shopping…aka a Bonus Weekend Day!”
I have, since April, devoted most of my free time to starting this blog. Along with a full-time job, being an Independent Wine Consultant in the evenings/weekends, and an occasional shift at the local Y, I have built myself up with several different responsibilities and have little free time to spare. A Bonus Weekend Day would give me a “leg up” on the week!
HA!! Was I Wrong…
A sick toddler comes with more than a day’s worth of work.
It is a day of Worry and Unanswered Questions. Is his fever getting worse? Where is the Tylenol? Will a bath be better than fresh air? Why wont he eat anything? Is he getting dehydrated? Should I bring him into the doctor? Why is he not sleeping?!
A Day of Disgusting. Uneaten soggy cereal and milk spilt everywhere at breakfast…gross. Leaky diaper on the couch…gross. Leaky diaper on me…double gross. Naked runaway (after his bath) toddler pee-fountain onto carpet…gross. Uneaten tomato soup, with soggy sandwich pieces, spilt everywhere…gross. Dried boogers on my shirt (triple the normal amount)…gross. Me, after the pee, boogers, sweat and tears….gross.
A Day of Heartbreak. Sit by me Mommy….Boogers Mommy….I’m too hot Mommy….On the couch Mommy….Wall-E Mommy….Juice Please Mommy….Medicine Mommy….Mickey and Blankie Mommy….Mommy….MOOMMMYYY….!! His sweet, heartbreaking pathetic voice is so out of character for him that I couldn’t say No in any form at all. What he needed was Me and I gave that 110%.
A Day of True Exhaustion. No, I didn’t leave the couch until 10am. No, I never put on “real” clothes for the day. No, I didn’t eat lunch until 3pm. No, I didn’t shower, brush my teeth or do my hair. And, No, I didn’t bother to do any household cleaning, laundry, dishes, NOTHing All Day. These were all things I needed to do, for myself. But, instead, I was giving all of me and an extra 10% into being there for my sick little boy.
There are plenty of Motherhood Secrets I have discovered in the short time I have been a Mother. Plenty of articles I read Before I was a Mom too (but I really don’t count those because It’s True, you really don’t understand any of it until you’re there, knuckles deep in “it”). The shocking secret I learned this week was how I wished that I Really WAS ENOUGH. I know I made my son feel better with all that I could give of myself but he still suffered with a fever and chills for days, didn’t eat anything of substance, was obviously in pain at times, and purely exhausted.
I have experienced that moment now that my own mother has mentioned in the past…If I could suffer the illness myself and spare my child, I would. I do not say this to be dramatic or make his sickness more than it is, but just to speak the truth. He is suffering symptoms from teething his two-year molars, nothing dangerous, or life threatening, but the Motherhood Instinct in me was real. There was no extra urge in me to see the laundry was done, or the dishes put away, all things that could wait until my son was feeling better.
I left my plans for Monetizing my website and Stepped UP as 110% Momma. My New Goal for the day was to make him Smile 🙂
I took out the laptop, and instead of pulling up my traditional website browsers, I opened Photo Booth! This little man started to smile as we sat on the deck, getting some fresh air, and making silly faces. His laugh was music to my ears and although he wasn’t quite better, it was a start 😀
For several days he continued to show terrible teething symptoms, but we ventured forth to work. Today he was singing loudly again, back to his normal self! I am grateful for the extra time spent with my little man, of course I’d wish for different circumstances, but overall I’m glad to have my own lap space back.
As always, Wine Pairs Wonderfully with Motherhood, and this particular week I needed to preserve the one bottle I had, so I mixed Lumière de Vie California Illumination with Fresca and stretched that bottle to the end. 🙂
Wishing all the best of health! Cheers!